Take it day by day

In all the ways I can love a man I love him. He has made me see and make me see things I could have never seen with out him. In many ways we are a like, and in some we are not similar. With this we have found a mesh that I hope we can keep moving.
As we go day by day with uncertainties and the trials of life I marvel at this man who teaches me. A man who proclaims to be filled with anger and pain so deep. I wonder how he has the strength to dish out the love he gives to me. I do appreciate his love, his time and the fact the he is mines.
I'm not trying to put so much on it but my love is deep. I give hard. Life to me mean living and I live to love. There is no better joy to me. But I don't just love the a man, I love my daughter, I love to cook, I love the smell of Jasmine, I love to enjoy. With all of the pain, hate and the easy ways to get around from enjoying life, thats when I let my man help me reflect and take it day by day.

I love him still

Wow for me 7 months is a record. We reached it on the 8th of this month. I'm still very happy. And we communicate on a regular basis. I'm appreciative of that.

It's funny cause with all the up and down. And what that past can really do to just rip a relationship apart. He stands strong in a lot of things and so do I. More than I would have in the past.

So that the New Years Fire Works and our Kiss


Happy New Years

The unhappiness in me

Sometimes I feel dissatisfied. I'm sure we are all dissatisfied with our lives one way or another. No matter the wealth, power, relationships, comfortability we are in. We all find unhappiness. So I find minds. It's funny too me. And I have to think about what it is that has gotten me to this point. Once I've taken a look at my situation, I take a hold of myself and make slight changes.

Life is what it is, I don't see anyone person being completely happy. There are to many faults in the world. To much shit to handle and to little time to do it in for complete solace. So as I go threw my life with my battles, I keep this one small reminder in the back of my head...

Unhappiness is life's little wake up call,
that the scheme to happiness is...
hopefully your deck has been shuffled well!
Kizze'

Unhappiness

Time Passing

Can't believe how quickly time is flyin. Feeling like I'm not getting enough done. Seems like my mind is working at a snails pace. Theres so many ideas I have. I wouldn't call them dreams, but ideas and it's like how do you get that out there if you weren't given the tools, if your not rich or born with money. I do a lot of search on the net and I try to network, but with who.
It's seem a hurdle I will have to overcome but It will defiantly make me stronger. Everyday I have to keep getting up, looking forward and moving ahead. It's never easy, but it will get easier, it will...

Finding that one

Can it really be as difficult as I make it! Or am I just being difficult? Maybe I think it is a mixture of both. Im not neccesary looking for that right man, but I do look for my said qualities when I out on a date or talking to men. And I'm finding myself more and more picky.

I'm not sure what it is but im not vibing with people like I would hope too. Im at a point in my life where looking is beyond me and I'm just waiting for the right time when things are going good in my life for me to really settle down with someone so I'm not giving it alot of effort. So maybe that where all the not vibing is coming from.

But still it's not like I try to be an ass hole or anything like that, if I go out with someone I try my best to have a good time, not even try I just do. And if in the end a relationship flourshs from that then so be it. But right now, I'm seeming to find those who I totally have nothing in common with or the things we do have in common are the bad things.

I told myself that I was going to wait until I was about 30 to really get into a relationship, I'm 26 now and I already of laying alone in my bed every nite, not just that I would love to be working towards something with someone.

Maybe that's that patience shit. I've been thus far. Rushing can only get me into trouble...

Male Species

I would never put down the male species and say that there aren't any good men. Because in my life span and the men I've dealt with, I've rarely dealt with a per se' bad one. More I would say, I couldn't deal with that person or person's issues and more or less choose not too. But due to the choices we make in life it seems that people end up being bad or no good.

And of course every one has issues big or little. But to me, it is all about knowing what you can handle and sticking to that. For instance, if you know that you can't stand a man without a job, I would say know matter how big the pipe is one day your going to get so over whelmed and frustrated with the situation. That basically, it's not worth even dealing with in the first place.

Men, same thing if your an ass man but you got a girl with tits one day your going to get tired of smacking air so why waste your time with the drama of breaking her heart. Cause now-a-days you never know what a crazy, sad, heart broken, big breasted, flat ass b**ch might due.

In the end we are talking about each like dogs...

"That nigga ain't shit he ain't had no job, didn't try to get one, piece of shit ass nigga's that why im by myself now, girl." Well no, your by yourself cause you knew and you still stayed around, let's be real.

"That ho ass hella flat, she a lossy f**k anyway! I never liked her, didn't care about her ass anyway." The truth being you did care at least a little, just wanted a big ass!

The sad part is it could have probably worked but just not with those issues so the best thing you could have done was to have just not dealt with the situation from the being, so much negative energy wasted when we could be spending the time ironing things out with the one person who issues you will tolerate.

Can you dig it?

men and women poem

I am a woman,
you are a man,
isn't that great,
to some extent,
I mean we come together for pleasure,
the best we make of it,
so when we come together,
for something much grander,
can we establish it,
not into a dream,
but something worth living for,
something to wake up too,
smile and say,
"Baby I Love you"!

Men lie too much, Women talk too much!

Sometimes, I sit and wonder, because we all do, why are guys and gals they way they are. I can't figure the shit out for the life of me. We all play games, some more then others and yet we want to be happy. Men never want to confess they have issues and women never shut the fuck up, so is it a losing battle.

Im plagued by the fact that men find it interesting to lie so much. Even if a woman has said tell me the truth. A man will still come back with, "I didn't think she could handle the truth". Well whether you thought she could or not, she ask you too. So just do it. Think about it, would you whether have a women screaming madly to the point of crazy and hate your guts or would you rather her scream, then realize what she said about the truth, thank you and then maybe suck your d**k for telling her the truth.

Women, I'm not saying I'm perfect but I realized the other day in a conversation I was having with a man, we as women talk completely too much. I know I can say "women" cause I am one and I know I'm not alone. But I was talking to this man and he was saying something, I was saying something, next thing you know I was saying something like "but no baby I like to cook you don't have to lift a finger", which in turn took him out of any cooking duties. I thought to myself how did that happen, well it was because I talk to much. He was about to tell me how he would cook or something but I wanted to talk and brag about my cooking. Now what do I get out of that? To cook all the time!

Just to introduce myself...

It pours from my mind, and rains from my heart,

it is my spirit,

mixed with my unique shine,

to speak words, to eliberate,

somebody told me this was a place to exercise my mind,

to recongnize,

don't want to be unknown,

but known,

for my realiness,

for being a soultress,

for my saucyness, for me,

I've got this mic,

want to handle it right,

by letting you, hear me,

feel me,

know me,

inhale me,

let me introduce myself,

Im Kizze'